In Waiting

Wow, it's been a while. And for good reason. I have had 3 years of writer's block. No, not really. I forgot to write. Really. How can a writer forget to write? It became too painful. Or, more appropriately, I became consumed in my pain. Life has not been easy. But I am learning that it's the "up's and downs" that define us; that make us who we are. It's been a process. There's another reason it's been a while. I felt like I was doing myself an injustice when I was writing my earlier blogs. They became about a deadline, a formula to get my point across. I had to have so many scriptures and questions and lines...... But I'm here now; that's what really matters. And here is a glimpse into my soul. Thank You Jesus that You are Healer! 

Lord, I am here

Waiting patiently on You

To do Oh Lord,

 What only You can do

I am empty

I feel incomplete

I need You God

To come heal me

Lord You know

The hurt in me

The pain I feel

That no one see’s

You know my guilt

The shame I bear

The child I want

My great despair

But You care

When others can’t see

You look at my potential

At what I can be

You hear my cries

You wipe the tears

You love me

Despite my fears

You take my unbelief

You take away the shame

You cast out the guilt

You heal the pain

You don’t give me what I want

You leave me with what I need

You remind me You’re in control

I just need faith the size of a mustard seed

That’s all I have

But to You I will give

My faith, my trust

Will to live

I will trust

You’re working good for me

I have faith

Even though I can't see

Forgive my unbelief

Forgive my indecision

Take my life, take it all

Fulfill Your mission

I won’t say it’s easy

I couldn’t say it doesn’t hurt

I will say I trust You

With all my heart

Lord, be near

Stay close to me

I give it all

                                                                   My life an offering